(M) Chapter 8 – Past Trauma (Part 2)
Chapter 1, Part 6
Novel Title: 融愛~Melt Down~ (Melted Love ~Melt Down~)
Author：風結子 沙野 (Fuyuko Sano)
Illustrator：雅良 水名瀬 (Masara Minase)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists: 葉越海理 (Yougoshi Kairi -MC), 葉越翼久 (Yougoshi Tasuku -ML)
*Please read at Novels Space.space, the original site of translation. TQ*
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⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: This chapter contains depictions of sexual grooming/exploitation and drugs abuse. Readers’ discretion is advised.
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Shaking off the woman’s arms, Tasuku crawls towards the entrance. The tatami mat sinks and squirms under his palms, as if trying to swallow him like a pitfall.
“Nii-chan, Nii-chan!”
He strains his voice desperately.
The woman’s hand clamps over his mouth, blocking not only his mouth but also his nose. He can’t breathe. Tasuku struggles frantically. In the struggle, he ends up straddling the woman, and his hands are gripping her neck.
“Tasuku!”
There was the sound of the entrance door bursting open. Kairi comes rushing in. He must have heard Tasuku’s voice through the thin walls of the apartment.
Seeing Tasuku strangling the woman, Kairi’s eyes widen, turning pitch black.
“I… I…”
It’s as if his tongue has become incredibly long, and he can’t speak properly. Kairi runs over, pale-faced, and pulls Tasuku off the woman. With a force that almost dislocates his shoulder, Kairi yanks Tasuku’s arm and dashes out of the woman’s apartment into their own home next door. He locks the door and puts on the chain. Their mother is out at the pachinko parlour.
Feeling as if the bones inside him have melted and disappeared, Tasuku can no longer stand. Kairi drags out a futon from the closet and lays Tasuku down. Tasuku clings to him, so Kairi also lies down on the futon.
When enveloped in his slender brother’s body, an intense sweetness gushed out from all over Tasuku’s body. Terrifyingly, it felt so good. His breathing became erratic. His hips moved naturally, repeatedly rubbing his lower body against his brother’s thigh.
“Tasuku… Tasuku, no-“
Tasuku shudders hearing his brother’s voice laced with confusion.
He clings to his brother, who’s trying to pull away. Maybe it’s not his imagination that he feels unusually strong. He overpowers his brother’s resistance and indulges in the act.
It feels so good, it’s almost like his head is going blank.
The shocking sensation that pierces through his head leaves him feeling like he’s wet himself, with his underwear soaked.
After that intense pleasure comes hell. For hours, Tasuku keeps vomiting. He’s cold, nauseous, and experiencing a living nightmare. The only solace is his brother’s gentle hands, caressing his back and holding him tight.
A few days later, the neighbour lady moved out with her parents. Apparently, the landlord realised the lady was ‘on drugs’ and contacted her family.
The lady didn’t rat out to Kairi that she had been giving Tasuku money.
That said, Kairi still believed that the money came from their mother, so the lie would have likely been exposed through their mother eventually. But the mother-child relationship was not functional enough for that.
Kairi only scolded Tasuku for befriending the ‘drug-using’ neighbour lady and getting injected with the ‘naughty drugs’.
However, there was another sin they didn’t voice out.
Lusting after his brother and having his first ejaculation for that. Tasuku knew, not rationally, but instinctively, that this was terribly wrong.
The bittersweet emotions make his core tremble.
“…mm”
Furrowing his brow deeply, Tasuku wakes up. The recollection of the incident from 14 years ago, replayed in his dream, has his brain tingling.
He pushes back his sweat-dampened bangs. Still panting, he turns his neck to look down at his brother sleeping on the futon on the floor next to the bed.
His compact body, about a size smaller than Tasuku’s, is turned towards him. The angle of the slender arms extending from the white t-shirt sleeve has an alluring quality. That peaceful sleeping expression. Under the dim light, that was the same familiar sleeping posture he’s watched over since childhood.
The androgynous beauty of his youth has long been lost. But in its place, a sharp, refined elegance now adorns Kairi’s current self.
The neatly arched brows, the soft curves of the eyelids beneath, the long lashes. The firm, straight jawline, the nose bridge running straight through the centre of his face – all these features convey an intellectual dignity. However, there is one among these forms that betrays all their purity in a fatal way.
Tasuku stares, entranced, at Kairi’s lips.
When conscious, they are tightly drawn. But in this relaxed sleeping state, their plumpness is obscenely alluring. The slightly curled upper lip seems to beckon. The slightly indented lower lip appears to wait to be bitten.
――He had touched those lips… and with another man’s.
He’s been rubbing his lips a lot, which had caught Tasuku’s attention. But the phone call that came after dinner was the key. A man making such a call just to confirm the return home likely has ulterior motives. The way his brother turned his face away to take the call also corroborated it.
His brother Kairi kissed a man named Tokiya today. And it was a long, lingering kiss that left an impression on his lips.
His cheeks tremble. His spine feels chilled as if pierced by ice, and a burning fury rises from the depths of his stomach.
Up until now, he’s been aware of his brother’s relationships with women and tolerated his brother’s dating them, as painful as it was. He couldn’t be the one to replace them, so he would cry but keep silent. Whenever he sensed his brother with a woman, Tasuku would go pick unnecessary fights on the streets, hurting both himself and others.
――But if it’s a man, it’s a different story.
From the photos he’s seen, Tokiya, the man in question, is a handsome, lanky guy about Tasuku’s height. The fact that Kairi is the one being dominated by this man is unbearable.
The things Tasuku can do, this other man is doing to his Kairi. Just thinking about it makes his head spin.
What should he do?
How can he alleviate this anguish?
Tasuku slides off the bed, almost falling, and lifts the edge of the futon. He slips in next to his defenceless sleeping brother. He moves close enough to feel his breath.
Their legs touch.
When they were children, they often intertwined their legs together under the cold kotatsu or in the futon.
Tentatively, Tasuku nudges his knee forward. As if by old habit, Kairi’s knee softens and envelops Tasuku’s thigh. The warmth of skin through the fabric and the gentle pressure make Tasuku’s spine tremble. He furrowed his eyebrows and closed his eyes. His heart was pounding.
This is something the upright Kairi would never imagine.
That his sleeping self is having his legs entangled by his lustful younger brother.
And in a state of after a wet dream, no less.
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*Translator’s Note: I gotta tell you guys. After reading this novel, Fuyuko Sano is officially my favourite author! I bought three more books from this author. Love this author’s works so much! -K
*GLOSSARY:
- Onii-san / Onii-chan / Nii-san / Nii-chan / Aniki = (Big/Elder) Brother
☝🏻I’ll be using these throughout my translation.
Next update: 2025.01.03
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